lying ass liar

I’ve got a Challenge scheduled for the 4th of July and then two more events after that but I don’t know what I want to do next.  I was talking to a friend at work (MK) and we were talking goals and depending on how much I hate this marathon, I want to try a 50 miler and moon-goal of 100 miler. Like, a real ultra. That or I can try to achieve the 315 squat/405 deadlift goal. I can’t really do both due to…no desire to train that hard but really, what else am I going to do? When will I have another chance to train my ass off and achieve The Dream™? I’ll probably retire from GORUCK after this. This shit is getting expensive.

All right. I’m a liar. I’m not actually retiring from GORUCK. I’m not even on a Retirement Tour™. It’s more like…

GORUCK 2: The New Batch
The GORUCK Reloaded
GORUCK 2: I paid for this…again?

I don’t want to get all philosophical with a GORUCK-changed-my-life post but it did. Not like, overcoming obstacles, fighting inner demons and shit like that because honestly, I’ve had way more stressful times and wanted to quit a lot more things in life and didn’t. What it did change was my day-to-day or month-to-month stuff. That is, I actually have things to do and I plan stuff/events now because of this cult.

So I message/text more GORUCK people on a day-to-day basis than I do my uh…growing up friends. This is not specific to GORUCK in that I’m sure people do that with their gym crew, party crew or knitting crew and well, I kind of found my home. So we have group texts, group chats and whatnot and I probably know more about them on a day-to-day basis than some of my close friends growing up. Which isn’t to say you’re closer to them than your pre-hobby friends but you can talk to them about stuff more. Like, I’ve got friends who are married and have kids and I have absolutely nothing to talk to them about because we don’t have anything in common anymore. Not that it’s a bad thing, it’s just a Life™ thing. I’m not looking to belong. I’m kind of a loner. Not in a cool lone-wolf-leather-jacket kind of way but more of a socially-awkward-can’t-make-friends kind of way. I’m not shy but I’m pretty introverted (I think I am, anyway) unless I start drinking and then I’m just an asshole. Really, the best vacation I’ve ever had was when I was off of work for two weeks and read one book a day while staying at home.

I’ve never been one to travel. I’d make excuses like I can’t afford it (usually true) or I didn’t really want to be out and about but that’s kind of a lie. It’s fun to travel, no doubt, but that sight seeing touristy stuff is not that exciting to me. It’s cool to take a picture and all that but I don’t usually go back and look at pictures so it’s kind of dumb. What I do like about GORUCK is that I’ll schedule trips out to do an event in a city I’ve always wanted to visit. It gives me a reason to be out there other than “oh hey let’s go out there” because, well, I’m not very sociable. This kind of forces me to be sociable.

Scav team best team

See? I get to hang out with these geniuses.